Meditation

Today I woke up and basically got right to work (on account of the time at which I got up). And my day got hijacked by a project I wasn’t anticipating. While eating lunch in front of my computer, though, I remembered how ineffective my meditating at night has been, and I realized that I was actually alone in the house with a small chance of interruption. While I thought I should probably just wait on the meditating, like I have been so frequently the last few days, I decided I could put aside five minutes for it. Once I had decided that, I realized I could put aside an entire fifteen minutes, which I did. And I got the work done, probably in a calmer, more focused state than I had before.

Exercise

I thought should do the same thing with exercise, but I decided instead to make some more progress on the project, which meant that I put it off for longer than anticipated. Luckily, Theo and I had some time to play outside. In addition to the sandbox, we got in a great many laps around the backyard, and I threw in some pushups for good measure. I guess this is the point where I admit that I know the difference between activity, exercise, and working out. I know where what range I’m in most of the time, and I’m okay with it.

Gratitude

1. I’m grateful for leftovers, which allow me to eat in front of the computer without fussing over complicated or unhealthy food.
2. I’m grateful that Theo keeps me active even when I don’t feel like doing anything. Often, it is less trouble to just get up and go do something with him rather than trying to convince him that my lying around on the couch or floor is best for both of us.
3. I’m grateful for Cokes. I know they aren’t good for me and are basically poison, but a cold one at the right time can make me feel better for a while.

Kindness

Once again, a challenge to be nice at home. Made doubly so by my being home by myself for the day. So, I’m going to send out some electronic kindness later. I don’t want to delay posting this until after I do though. If I don’t get it done, I’ll admit it tomorrow. I’m cool with the honor system if you are.

Something positive

As I mentioned, my work day didn’t go exactly as planned today because of some unforeseen work that needed to be done ASAP, at least according to the person who wanted it done. This bothered me for a bit because it happens too often and I feel like it is really disrespectful of my time and schedule. But it didn’t actually bother me for that long, not on an emotional level. I realized that I was upset about it and took a minute to work through that emotion, to understand why I was getting grumpy. And then I wasn’t quite as grumpy. I wasn’t thrilled about the work, but I got it done and didn’t feel sorry for myself the whole time. That felt a little like progress to me, and I’m happy it worked out that way.

So the countdown begins. Soon, I’ll have to actually do some introspection about this experiment as a whole.